Amber Heard — Direct

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MS. HEARD: Yes. That looks like the picture I took of Johnny in July, around July of 2013.

MS. HEARD: Because, at the time, there were - I was already sensitive. I had been in a relationship with Johnny for over a year, you know, coming up on two years, and I had already noted that there was this pattern of behavior changes with him that would make my life significantly more complicated or peaceful, difficult, or wonderful, depending on what the cycle -what he was using. And I only could tell that he was using because I had - I would have to look for clues and, you know, he would pass out and, you know, get sick and lose control of himself. And then people would pick him up and clean him up and fix it.

MS. HEARD: And he wouldn't either remember or he would deny it or he would accuse me of saying that this had happened when it didn't. And there was no one to back me up. You know, there was no - it was just his employees and everyone who had been taking care of him versus my word. And so I started to take pictures to say, look, this is happening. This is, you know - I understood enough about addiction to know that you have to hit rock bottom. Like, you have to have some consequence for your action or for your behavior, if you ever change to get better.

MS. HEARD: And it seemed, to me, like that was not happening, so I - I noticed a behavior pattern change and he started to, instead of, you know, fits of rage, he started to pass out a lot and fall asleep and kind of fall asleep mid conversation. It was just a pattern change. So I started to pick up on the clues so I could figure out what I was dealing with.

MS. HEARD: Johnny passed out on the island where we were vacationing. He had had a bit of a stint of sobriety right before this, and it started to change with his friend Paul Bettany, and-

MS. HEARD: Yeah.

MS. HEARD: Yes. That was taken --

MS. HEARD: Yes, I did.

MS. HEARD: This was after a several-day bender, you know, a binge of Johnny's. The 22nd of March, which we talked about yesterday, about he tried to burn a painting. He -- and was accusing me of having affairs with a musician, my ex-partner. And he was on these, like, you know, a drug binge, where I saw him not -- not eating, little to no sleep, and he would just use cocaine and drink all day long.

MS. HEARD: That would go for a period of time, and I then a major blowup, and then he would get sick and pass out and feel really awful, and often, including this time, would start a period of sobriety after that

MS. HEARD: Sure. He was promoting Lone Ranger, and I had just met his kids at the premiere in Los Angeles shortly before this tour started. They found out about me -

MS. HEARD: Sure.

MS. HEARD: So I believe we went from that stop to Tokyo with the kids. And he had had difficulty with drinking in front of them, he was trying to hide it, and, yes, he was dealing with some stress, some stress around his career. I didn't have a lot of details, but he was drinking at the restaurant and the kids were kind of, you know, noticing but not really sure what to make of it.

MS. HEARD: Anyway, Johnny became upset with me for judging him. He would- he was, you know-I couldn't - it was like I couldn't win. If I didn't do anything, if I didn't say anything to him about the drinking, if I didn't acknowledge it, it got worse. If I did acknowledge it, it was my fault, and I was nagging. I get it, you know, I wouldn't like to be told what to do either, so, but it made him really angry and the kids were on this press tour, and I was just concerned about them. I was concerned about them hearing us. Johnny screamed at me in the hotel room, and all I could think were the kids were in an adjoining room. What if they could hear us? You know, I had just met them, and I didn't want them to think poorly of me and hate me, not knowing what was going on, you know, in our -- behind closed doors. I remember it was name-calling, and he eventually passed out.

MS. HEARD: I heard, this time, nagging bitch, nagging bitch, all the time. Called me a cunt. that when we touched back down, he'd get rid of me and I'd go back to -- he said some disgusting He even said that he made a mistake with me and things to me. I don't know if I need to repeat it.

MS. HEARD: I did.

MS. HEARD: He was passed out with his head on the table in the hotel room, in our hotel room, not the kids' hotel room, in Tokyo, on that press tour.

MS. HEARD: Well, after -- you know, after this, I was getting close to his kids and he had a stint of sobriety shortly after that, and it felt really good again. And shortly after that, he started suggesting that I let him rent my apartment for the vultures, that's what he called the press, and he said now that we were, like, a known couple, now that it was out in the press, that my apartment wasn't, like, safe, effectively, for me. You know, I had a modest apartment in Los Angeles. And so, he started saying I needed to have security on me or it would bring out the neighboring -- the neighboring houses because of the vultures. It was a conversation, and then that conversation evolved into that I should move in with him.

MS. HEARD: You know, he always wanted me to go with his security guards, wanted me to have his credit card. Obviously, I wouldn't accept that. But the conversation about moving in became, you know, hard to resist because I was increasingly becoming a part of his life. And, also, loving his -- loving his family and feeling like, you know, more stability would mean more stability with him and his struggles with drug and alcohol abuse -- use. And I thought I would minimize some of the jealousy and insecurity that he had. It was hard for me to work, justify working. Every audition, every meeting, every script I got was a negotiation or a fight. I had to justify it, like, as if I was saying, hey, let's have an open relationship, you know. And I thought that would be minimized if I could make him feel more secure by, you know, if we lived together, certainly there would be more security, right?

MS. HEARD: And that was my reasoning.

MS. HEARD: Well, I've always -- I've always been really -- I've always been really independent, you know, and I never imagined not working. I've worked from the earliest time I can imagine. I come from, you know, parents who worked until they literally couldn't anymore. I never, never imagined myself having to explain my job or justify my job. But I did, you know, and I am independent and I see myself as independent and strong-willed, and I had to bargain. Every time I'd get a script, it would be, you know, I thought you weren't taking another job? I'd always say, are you kidding me? That's crazy. I have to work. I'm supporting my family. When I moved out to LA, I'd get a check for, you know, a gig, $600 or something. I'd save half for me, send half to my family.

MS. HEARD: You know, I kept having to justify taking work by saying I'm supporting my parents, you know, I'm supporting my sister, I'm supporting my family. I have to work. And he would say, you don't have to work, kid, let me take care of you. My woman doesn't have to work. And that sounds really sweet and really romantic in some way, but it became a real fight. You know, every time I got a script, it was what kind of -- you know, how I was dressing, what kind of behavior I would have. Did I have a sex scene? And then I started saying, no, I won't take the sex scenes or, you know, I'll take the part where I don't play, you know, that kind of character or - then I started minimizing the kind of kissing scenes that I had. And eventually, I had to change the wardrobe that I could have in the movie. I couldn't have a - couldn't have a sex scene. But that all was, you know, it didn't happen all at once, of course. It O was little thing after a little thing after a little thing.

MS. HEARD: And eventually, I found myself pushing as many scripts off my desk as I could, picking one that had minimum makeup, dressed as conservative as possible, finding ways to minimize the scenes I had where I had a romantic involvement of any kind. It was just - it was a constant battle and negotiation.

MS. HEARD: Yes.

MS. HEARD: It's a little confusing, I imagine. He had about, I think, four or five mansions in this beautiful, like, you know, border of Beverly Hills and West Hollywood, and they were all on a cul-de-sac. And we called it "Sweetzer" because that was the name of the street, and there are five houses, I think five houses, it could be four, all, you know, effectively, he had the whole street. Then he had about five penthouses downtown on the same floor of the Eastern Columbia Building, which you've heard about, the ECB. And Sweetzer was, you know, Johnny's kingdom. One of those houses was, like, a whole house was his man cave, it was a studio, and it was where he did music and hung out. And we spent some time in there. But that was, effectively, Johnny's, you know, place.

MS. HEARD: And then there was the downtown places. And they were, effectively, empty, save for some furniture and one of Johnny's friends, Isaac, who you met, and he lived there, at some point, before Johnny and I eventually decided to move in together.

MS. HEARD: Isaac lived in the penthouses. The rest of them were about - pretty much empty. And my best friend, who I was very, very, very, very close to, went through a breakup and he very kindly insisted on moving her into this penthouse.

MS. HEARD: 121 And, of course, she said no for the first few times, but he insisted and said they were empty and he would love to have her move down there. And he very kindly moved my best friend downtown.

MS. HEARD: Yes, Rocky Pennington. But the problem is, it's, like, 30, 45 minutes from West Hollywood, where my place was, which we called "Orange" at the time.

MS. HEARD: Shortly after he moved Rocky, my best friend, into the penthouse. So she was in one of these emptyish apartments. And somewhere around that time I -- I think it took me some time, actually. But after that, I eventually agreed to move in with him and give up my place. Although, that made me pretty nervous, to be honest. But we were in this relationship that was very serious and we were constantly traveling, also was another part of it.

MS. HEARD: If we were in LA for a matter of days or weeks, I'd go do a job, he'd go do a job, I'd come back for a photo shoot or red carpet, go on a location, go visit him on a location. There was an incredible amount of travel movement, so we weren't living, again, living the day-to-day that you might normally with a partner, you know, where you have a home and you move in together and you have one home. We didn't have that, it was --

MS. HEARD: Very difficult.

MS. HEARD: Yes, that's right.

MS. HEARD: I was filming London Fields. I'd just started.

MS. HEARD: Well, yeah, it was difficult because that role was, like, a very difficult role. I mean, every time -- every scene that involved sexuality or romance was, like, I'd look at that on the page and, you know, I'd feel my gut tighten because I knew it was going to be an issue. But Johnny dropped me off. He -- I gave him the script. I sent him a picture of what I was wearing, my wardrobe fittings, I sent him everything. I shared his script -- my script with his team. And the fighting eventually kind of minimized. It was clear I was going to do this job and I told myself I had to do this job. And Johnny had to go to London, I think, for some preproduction stuff for a movie he was going to do a smaller part in, I think. It was called -- I think this was Into the Woods, is my best guess.

MS. HEARD: So he dropped me off in London. And when he dropped me off in London, we had a few days at this hotel that we first, like, consummated our relationship in. You know, it was when we were on the London press tour and our relationship developed; that was the same hotel, we were in the same room, which was -- Johnny liked to be in the same room. And it was really sweet. He got down on one knee and said, "I want you to be my girl, be my girl forever, my woman, my girl. I want you to be the rest of my life. Say yes to me." He said he wanted to spend every -- every day-- he promised me that every day, when I woke up, that I would wake up and he would make me smile, at least once, and that would be his goal. And, you know, I looked into his eyes and I saw my future, hope, you know, like blind hope, so in love. So it was one of the most -- I can't describe that kind of joy, you know. Thought, you know, if we were married, then this is real.

MS. HEARD: This is real. This isn't a thing of--this isn't chaotic. This will change. You know, I had so much hope in that moment. And I just said to him, over and over again, "Are you serious? Are you serious? Are you sure," because he didn't have a ring. So I just thought, was this an impulse thing? You know, my experience, Johnny could be very impulsive. And he said, over and over again, "Be my woman forever. I want you to be my wife, my wife, my wife." I, of course, cried and we had a wonderful evening, and I still -- he left shortly And I felt like the luckiest woman in the world.

MS. HEARD: So, as I said, he came to London for his own work and, also, dropped me -- he dropped me off in London, where I had to be for a few months to film this movie. And he asked me to marry him. He brought my best friends and my dad out. They left. And shortly after they left, my co-star, one of my co-stars, invited me to go to a concert with him and some of the cast to kind of break the ice, I'd be working with them for the next few months. And I had already, you know, I

MS. HEARD: He said, effectively, no; that if I accepted the invitation and went out to a concert, that the engagement would be off, that the relationship would be off. And that I was foolish, naive for thinking that people could invite me to a concert in a platonic way. I tried to say that if -

MS. HEARD: He said I was foolish and naive, that no one could invite me to - how could I be so dumb to think that somebody could just invite me to a concert. Why would they want to hang out with me? Obviously, it was because they wanted And I apologized. That whole evening, I think for hours, I spent on the phone with him, texting, calling, we're talking, hanging up, he'd hang up on me, be upset, and then send me cryptic messages about my foolishness. And, you know, I'm already doing a movie where I play this, you know, character when I -- you know, where I was -- like I read the script and I thought this character was empowered sexually. By the time I got Johnny's feedback on it, I had been convinced that, actually, I was just being used. That I was just being used.

MS. HEARD: It was clear that that was all I had to offer, and I was too foolish to see it.

MS. HEARD: Uh-huh.

MS. HEARD: Yes, I do.

MS. HEARD: Yes, it is.

MS. HEARD: Yes.

MS. HEARD: Yes.

MS. HEARD: Yes, he did.

MS. HEARD: It was clear. It was a threat. A threat that if I wanted to be -

MS. HEARD: In London.

MS. HEARD: Part of it. I happened to be in London already, for the film I was just telling you about, and Johnny came to London shortly after to film his own movies. He did the smaller, I think y it was a smaller role, in Into the Words and then he was filming Mortdecai after that. So after I finished my movie, I moved in with him, into his house in London, a rented house in London.

MS. HEARD: Okay.

MS. HEARD: When he was sent home, they had to ls carry him home.

MS. HEARD: I watched it.

MS. HEARD: I watched actually I was shocked that he could do it One of the security guards carried Johnny like a baby into the house And I looked at that I mean his boots were hanging over the security guard's arm who had to negotiate getting through the doorway carrying Johnny like this And I thought I watched this his assistants and the other security guards shaking their head you know just shaking their head acknowledging this how bad it is And I remember thinking this has got to be it Like this has got to change This is And he was, understandably, very, very sick for at least two days, is my recollection. And in that two days, I had a lot of conversations with his team, I won't say what they were. But I felt, at that juncture, very encouraged that everybody and myself were on the same page. And I felt encouraged that we were in a new chapter. That Johnny had finally hit rock bottom and finally he felt like changing for good. And I felt really, you know, supported by these conversations I was having with people that he was close to, that he trusted.

MS. HEARD: Yes. They came to stay with us for some time in the winter. Yeah, around November, I believe, 2013.

MS. HEARD: Johnny's kids, Jack and Lily-Rose.

MS. HEARD: Yes.

MS. HEARD: Well, he -- I -- I didn't -- I was -- I -- I was -- you know, these kids were -- I found them to be these beautiful, wildly intelligent little weirdoes, in the best way. You know, they were -- I was falling in love with them and, you know, they were in my life at that time, a short amount of time, but I loved it, and I felt -- I started to feel very protective and, you know, Johnny's sobriety meant that he was there and then he wasn't. The nature of our lives, with the travel and work, meant he was there and then he wasn't.

MS. HEARD: And Lily-Rose, at some point, had a crush I on a, you know --

MS. HEARD: This argument happened because Johnny was - I didn't agree that this gentleman, it was a famous musician, over the age of 18, spent the night at the house, and I felt protective over Lily-Rose and concerned. And, naturally, they're not- they were not my children. It's not my place. And I understand that. I know it's a sensitive subject. So I understand why Johnny got so upset with me. But that and the introduction of the weed with his daughter. She was so young. I just felt protective.

MS. HEARD: Again, it's not my place, I understand that. And I made him really angry by weighing in on that.

MS. HEARD: Well, we celebrated Thanksgiving out in London, the kids were there. There was a stint of sobriety following how sick he got on set with Paul Bettany after one of his drug binges, and he kind of just came alive again. He even, like, played a prank on me about having, like, relapsed when he hadn't relapsed. I started to kind of feel that with the kids being around. I kind of thought -- I did think that maybe this was it. We were on a good path, meaning to sobriety. That this was it. And our life was peaceful for a minute. You know, it was -- it went back to being wonderful. There were these moments that it just felt so wonderful.

MS. HEARD: Then, yes, come Christmas of 2013, Johnny had rented this beautiful mansion in Malibu on the beach. It was gorgeous. And he brought my family out and his family was out, obviously, in LA, and we stayed in this rented mansion and we're y all together for the holidays, and it went -- one evening, we were going to his mother's house, his mother, who you've heard about, was old -- older and sick, but at home being cared for, and he--

MS. HEARD: One evening, we're going to have dinner, Christmas dinner there with her, around the time of her I 7 birthday as well. And my best friend said --

MS. HEARD: Other.

MS. HEARD: We went to Betty Sue's house, his mother's house, and Johnny proposed in front of our families in this big, you know, he surprised me, got down on one knee, and, you know, I cried and hugged my mother and hugged his mother, and he gave me this enormous diamond ring. And it was a nice time.

MS. HEARD: She was my assistant at the time. I hired her sometime in 2012 and had as minimal contact with her as I possibly could.

MS. HEARD: She was difficult, troubled, and inconsistent. She drank on the job and stuff like I that. Her behavior was -

MS. HEARD: Horrible. its

MS. HEARD: Minimal person-to-person interaction because I was hardly ever in LA. If I was, I was there for a few days at a time, and Johnny and I kind of lived in this interior bubble, anyway, when we were together. But we would send emails, texts, and voice -- a lot of voice memos, voice notes. And I found that if I said, Kate, you know, you left the car running with your doors open and your kids in the car on the street.

MS. HEARD: Yes, I did

MS. HEARD: Yes, it is.

MS. HEARD: Well, after the - after the engagement, but before the engagement party, I started to - I started to feel like it would make - you know, I know that he earned significantly more than me, successful actor. I wanted to eliminate any doubt in his mind and in other people's mind. So I brought it up to him and brought it up to my therapist.

MS. HEARD: Of course. Johnny said he would tear it up if I - he said if you ever brought one up to me or if I ever saw one, got my hands on it, I'd tear it up. The only way out of this is death. The only way out of this is death.

MS. HEARD: And I - I thought it - I thought it would, like - I didn't care either way, but I did feel that it would eliminate suspicion or doubt and it would make things easier. And I told him over and over again, you know, are you sure? Are I you sure? Maybe we should do this. And he -- one time, he said to me, he was, like, kid, are you already thinking of how you're getting out of this? Are you already planning on getting out of this, kid? You're already planning on leaving?

MS. HEARD: It was -- that was the same -- it was around the same time as the moving in together conversation. It was -- he accused me of having one foot out. And they kind of were happening around the same time. You know, I still had my apartment and we're engaged now. He was asking me to redecorate Sweetzer, his main house, and kind of move in to the ECB building downtown, where my best friend was living at this time, while the decorations and the remodeling had been done on Sweetzer.

MS. HEARD: So these conversations were kind of , happening about how to build our future together and how we were going to move forward together.

MS. HEARD: And I-- you know, I would have forgotten about the extent that we had those conversations early on in the engagement if it hadn't been for my therapist's notes.

MS. HEARD: If it hadn't been for my therapist's notes, taken at the time when I was talking with her about this and my conversations with her.

MS. HEARD: Yes, so -- yeah, it was March 2014.

MS. HEARD: We had an engagement party and we decided that when we did get married, we'd have a small wedding, you know, something intimate. But, you know, our lives were kind of big. His life was extremely big. And we needed to incorporate -- we wanted to have a bigger engagement party than a wedding, you know, and kind of get our guests in, our family, our friends, and have a big -- a big event of it as opposed to making the wedding something that was big. And, you know, so we kind of put it on the engagement party and had a bunch of people, a lot of friends, business acquaintances, a lot of family. I had all of my family friends and my childhood friends come out for it. I even invited my therapist. It was, you know, a big event.

MS. HEARD: Well, we walk in together and we took some pictures and said a few hellos and then Johnny disappeared upstairs in -- I guess it's, like, a coat room or something. It's in a big, abandoned building that was rented out for events. And he disappeared upstairs, almost the entire party, I would say. He kind of came down at the end when we were leaving and came down once because he was, at the time, sharing drugs with my dad.

MS. HEARD: I was there. I watched it.

MS. HEARD: My dad, at the time, was on the same - was addicted to the same thing Johnny was, and, so, my dad had - either my dad ran out or Johnny ran out, but there was a -you know, they needed more, of course, and had to leave the party- my dad actually left with Johnny's security to go get more drugs from -

MS. HEARD: They told me.

MS. HEARD: And they left to go whatever, and they came back with drugs and everything was okay, in terms of the withdrawal symptoms. I don't know what you call it at that point.

MS. HEARD: But, he still stayed upstairs and --

MS. HEARD: Yes, I am.

MS. HEARD: And so, shortly after that, I tried to get Johnny to come downstairs, and he just snapped at me, just verbally. Told me to shut the fuck up. And I remember talking to my mom about the irony of it.

MS. HEARD: We were at an engagement party. But that was a pretty -- that was pretty much it for the engagement party. And I went downstairs and entertained guests and smiled and took pictures and put on a face and, you know, went about my evening.

MS. HEARD: Met Gala is a big event, annual event, celebrity event in New York. It's a fashion evening, but it's a just a major red carpet event. And you have to be invited and it's kind of a And we were invited that year, and I -- I had already gone for the previous year, too, and this year we were going to go together. And at some point, in the evening, we're sitting across the table and Johnny starts asking me about this woman, he thought I was looking at this woman in a sexual way. And I kind of turned it around on him and said --

MS. HEARD: Okay. He was accusing me of flirting, and that's how the argument started. I don't recall what other accusations I was fielding at that moment, but, typically, in my experience with him, it wasn't just one. He would make a point and then he would go on to a different accusation.

MS. HEARD: But I remember what started it is this accusation that I had been flirting at this event.

MS. HEARD: We get back to the hotel room, and Johnny shoves me and kind of grabs me by the collarbone area, not really my neck, but top of my neck - top of my- above my collarbone, below my neck.

MS. HEARD: I think, at that point, when we were still in the living room, I shoved him back. But I can't - I don't really recall too many specifics. I remember he threw a bottle at me. It missed me but it broke the chandelier. And, at some point, I remember, maybe this was the shove that I was talking about, but at some point, Johnny and I are in a struggle in the living room, and he kind of, like, shoves me down on the sofa; I get up and I'm trying to get him off of me. He's just stronger than me. I don't know how else to describe it. At some point, he just whacks me in the face. And I had not, at the time, been - like, I didn't - I think that was the first time I was, like, is this a broken nose? At the time, I was unsure what that feeling was, but I suspected I had a broken nose. And other than that, I was relatively unscathed. But I remember my nose being swollen, discolored, red, and I took a picture of my face at some point. I made a joke about it to my friend, about how bad I looked compared to -

MS. HEARD: Okay.

MS. HEARD: I believe May. I filmed another movie in New York, March, April -- April, May, I went straight from that movie to another movie. An independent film with James Franco. The one I had previously shot was with Christopher Walken.

MS. HEARD: That's right. Okay. So I went from one to the other, and saw Johnny in these, you know, in between, like if I got a long weekend or, you know, I'd fly home to be with him and fly back. It was kind of like that.

MS. HEARD: In New York.

MS. HEARD: Johnny was in LA, at the time, and then eventually went on location for his movie, Black Mass, in Boston.

MS. HEARD: Eventually. By May, 2014. That's it.

MS. HEARD: It's a nightmare. I wanted to do this independent film. I liked the story, I liked the character. I, you know, told him I'm not going to wear makeup in the thing.

MS. HEARD: He was mad at me for taking the job with James Franco. He hated, he did, James Franco, and was already accusing me of kind of secretly having a thing with him in my past, since we had done Pineapple Express together.

MS. HEARD: Well, I I had spoken to Johnny, you know, he's in Boston, I'm in New York, and I spoke to him. He had already been upset with me and accused me in, like, many arguments about not telling him about scenes that I had. If I had a y kissing scene, any sort of romantic scene, and I wasn't explicit about what I was going to do, then I was accused of having withheld information and hiding it from him.

MS. HEARD: So I didn't want the fight, of course, I didn't want the argument, but I had to kind of eggshell, tip toe around how to tell him when I had any sort of scene like that. And I did tell him in this occasion --

MS. HEARD: Okay. So he was upset with me, but he didn't sound coherent so much on the phone. He was yelling at me about how could you? How could you tell me this? How could you tell me this when I'm filming, when I have this scene that I'm doing? How could you tell me this when I'm working?

MS. HEARD: Obviously, I couldn't tell him any other time because we were both filming, and I told him as soon as it was relevant. But he kept saying, how could you tell me this? How could you just tell me this? And it was like I had told him I was having an affair or something. You know, he was that angry at me. But he kind of started to sound less connected to reality as these, like, arguments would happen on the phone. This is in one day.

MS. HEARD: Eventually, he hangs up on me in the conversation, screaming. Screaming at me. I talked to his assistants, I won't say what they said, but I had conversations and felt encouraged that I could continue on with the plan, which was for me to get on the plane, go to Boston, pick him up, and we would go back to LA for his daughter's birthday. I was nervous because of the conversation I had had with him, and he was so upset with me on that conversation. But I figured he - I assumed he had passed out and that he would have been kind of sobered up the next day, assuming that the work would mean that he felt pressured to kind of pull it together. And I get on the plane, he sent the plane, so I assumed he's not that mad at me. He's over it. We're moving on. He sobered up. There had been a lot of talk about a sober plan, like a full detox, a full recovery, a doctor, the whole plan. You know, there were talks of that following what had happened in London. So I was feeling like, okay, well, maybe we're here. I get on the plane. It touches down and the SUV pulls up, and it sits on the tarmac for a very long time.

MS. HEARD: He knows I'm on the plane waiting for him, so I kind of started to anticipate that things weren't as I hoped, meaning that he was sober and had slept it off. And I get -- I mean, I'm sitting on the plane for a very long time waiting for him and he finally opens the door, and I see him get out of the SUV, and I can guess, by how he's moving, how he's walking, I didn't realize, at the time, I had already become really sensitive to these little changes because my life changed depending on what he was on. And he gets on the plane and I - I just knew, in every cell of my body, that something was wrong.

MS. HEARD: And he comes straight up to me, doesn't say anything to me, but is looking at me. He's got these glasses on and he takes them off in this kind of aggressive manner and sits down across from me, not in the usual spot We kind of have our places on his plane, you know, where you get used to sitting. I remember I got up and moved to accommodate him getting by so he could sit in the normal seat, as per usual. He didn't. He sat across from me.

MS. HEARD: At some point, I don't really remember the exact sequence of it, we take off, at some point he's asking me what's wrong with me? What do I have? Do I have something to tell him? Do I have something to tell him? Do you want to talk to me about your day yesterday? And then it gets - I already know that he's drunk. I already know he's using - he reeks of weed and alcohol. I mean, his breath smelled so bad and I could - I could anticipate that there was a no-win situation here. There was no me talking myself out of this or talking him down or any - you know, a lot of my arguments and my involvement in them are me trying to defuse by explaining -

MS. HEARD: So he is asking me questions, and I know not to engage.

MS. HEARD: I was polite. I made sure to answer minimal amount of, you know, the minimal amount that I could. I moved slowly. I was trying to be polite but not engage because there was no win. And he kept going. Kept asking me. Eventually, it went from do you have something to tell me to you want to tell me how much you liked it? Tell me, did he slip a tongue? It got worse and worse. It just more. It went from asking me about how my kissing scene went or how the sex scene went to asking me what James Franco had done in the scene to being really explicit about my body. You know, he was talking about my-- saying really disgusting things about my body, about how I liked it, how I responded. Then he started taunting, just straight up taunting me. I know you liked it. He called me a go-getter. He called me a slut. Also, this is happening with security and his assistants on the plane.

MS. HEARD: And I remember I felt -- I don't -- I struggle to be able to tell you how embarrassed I was because he was speaking to me in front of people in this way, asking me if I liked it and if I was wet. And, you know, why I wasn't looking at him. And that was proof, I wasn't looking at him, that was proof that I was asking for it. Did I ask James to do this and this to me. And how about if he does those things to me, insert sexually explicit descriptions of what he accused me of wanting or deserving.

MS. HEARD: And I, at some point in this, get up and move to the front of the plane. And I remember getting up so slowly. I didn't want to aggravate him. I didn't want to give him any excuse to pounce on. I didn't want to upset him. I didn't want him to flip a switch and get worse. I didn't want -- I just remember very slow movements, and I slowly get up and move to the front of the plane and he starts throwing things at me. Ice cubes, utensils. He was calling me a go-getter and then an embarrassment. Talking about what an embarrassment I am. I don't know how many times I moved seats, I wish I did. I don't.

MS. HEARD: I remember moving more than once, and Johnny came to me each time. Not the other way around. He sits down in front of me, at one point, and because I'm not answering him, I was looking out of the window, and he slaps my face. And his friend is in our proximity. And I -- it didn't hurt me. It didn't hurt my face, I just felt embarrassed that he'd do that to me in front of people. It was the first time that anything like that had happened in front of somebody.

MS. HEARD: I got up to move again and he's just taunting me, having a laugh, screaming, and then just straight up mean, calling me names. And it was oscillating between those things.

MS. HEARD: And I get up, slowly again, and I just resolve to just sit, the rest of the time, up at the front of the plane.

MS. HEARD: And as I get up, he kind of kicks the swivel chair into my hip, but kind of just hits me. I look at him and he asks me, "What? What are you going to do about it?"

MS. HEARD: I just stared at him. I just stared at him and wanted him to see me. I wanted to get through to him. Didn't feel there was, like - it felt like there was a blackness in his eyes. I wanted to look at him. I wanted him to see me. It didn't even feel like him.

MS. HEARD: And as I'm walking away, slowly, trying not to be - I was being very deliberate about my movements, wasn't saying anything. I wasn't engaging. I'm walking away from him slowly, and he tells me, hurry the fuck up. Hurry up. And I just look at him one more time wanting to penetrate the monster to see the man that I love underneath that. The man I love. And he tells me to hun-y up again. And I pull my gaze away from him. I walk away from him. My back is turned to him. And I feel this boot in my back. He just kicked me in the back. I fell to the floor, I caught myself on the floor. I just felt like I was looking at the floor of the plane for, felt like, a long time. I thought to myself, I don't know what to do. I can't believe he just -- did he just kick me? No one said anything. No one did anything. It was like you could hear -- you could hear a pin drop on that plane. You could feel the tension, but no one did anything. And I just remember feeling so embarrassed.

MS. HEARD: I felt so embarrassed that he could kick me to the ground in front of people. And more embarrassing, I didn't know what to do about it. I got up and I just -- I walked to the front of the plane. I sat down, and I just looked out of the window. Jerry Judge, the security, and my g y y ! friend both kind of, under their breath, asked me, are you okay?

MS. HEARD: I spent a lot of time looking out of the window.

MS. HEARD: I want to sit here and say that I was, like - I was telling myself that I needed to leave him, but as he got worse, he demanded the oxygen tank from the flight attendant. The flight attendant, excuse me, and he continued to drink and then eventually started howling like an animal and passed out in the bathroom, with the door locked, and was howling. And I, at some point, pushed record on my phone because there was that 5 percent part of me -

MS. HEARD: Because I knew that Johnny wouldn't remember what he had done. I knew he would not remember-

MS. HEARD: In my experience, when Johnny was that inebriated, he would not remember what he had done.

COURT BAILIFF: All rise.

COURT BAILIFF: All rise.

COURT BAILIFF: Please be seated.

MS. HEARD: I called for a cab, a car to pick me up, met me at the private airport, and I left. I got straight off the plane as soon as we touched down. Johnny had been saying some - what he would do to me once we got on the ground, and I didn't know how long the cycle would last, so I wanted to just get out of there. And I went to a hotel and called my friends to join me, which was my coping strategy at the time.

MS. HEARD: That's correct.

MS. HEARD: Yes, it is.

MS. HEARD: Once I had touched down in LA.

MS. HEARD: That I needed help.

MS. HEARD: That I was scared. I was scared of what had just happened to me. I was scared of what was going to happen to me. I was scared if I left him I was scared if I didn't. I needed help. I just needed support I couldn't - I didn't feel safe going home. I still had my place in Orange, he had keys.

MS. HEARD: I - I was scared.